oh hey, what's up? i went to chicago again last weekend to see red and her boyfriend jordan and jordan's friend david, and we went to a family barbecue turned wild debauched party, though i left with the car and went to reckless records while the guidos were there. man, bummer. i also fell asleep in the car on the side of a street downtown and dropped mad money on food, so much that i only had $1.58 in my bank account last week. usually i am really responsible with my money, but i'm finding it hard to afford food and shit. pretty lame. i don't even pay rent this summer but i'm still having a hard time making ends meet. maybe i will get another job.

my job is boring and unobtrusive for the most part, but i really hate working with someone else. so basically i was psyched about my job for a week, but now it just stresses me out. pretty lame. oh and i get an error whenever i try to check out books now too, so i guess i can't even do that. what the fuck ever.

pretty much every moment i am here it becomes more and more apparent to me that i absolutely loathe macalester and everyone who goes there and that i shouldn't waste my time on college dorks. unfortunately it's already been two years and i guess it's too late to transfer or something and i don't even know where i would want to go. honestly at this point coming here and being here seems like two years of straight up fucking mistakes. i fucked up bad on making friends who like any of the same things i do so now i hang out with people out of habit and i hate it and find it so unfulfilling. fuuuuuuck life.

i am pretty lonely and bored, i haven't worked out since i sprained my ankle in APRIL, and i fucked up bad and made my living situation awkward as shit. oh and i had a dream that my parents tried to choke me to death. fucking whatever. oh well, records are still a high point. here's some shit i've been digging lately:
negazione - lo spirito continua lp
h100s - dismantle 7"
chelsea - right to work b/w the loner 7"
skitkids - new lp
estranged - 7"s + live

if you wanna hang out i'll be in my room playing super mario 3 and trying to wake up after 7:30 am. summer is stupid. why do i live here. bye assholes.